Tag: Grief
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Hope
It’s been a few months since I’ve posted. Partially because I’ve been afraid to – often drafting these posts hurt. I don’t want to hurt any more than I already do. And partially because I wasn’t sure that anything I had thought about sharing felt complete yet. But today at church I found clarity and…
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Why Blog?
Why blog? That is a fabulous question that I don’t quite have an answer to. While Landan was hospitalized, I shared more on social media than I ever have before. We’re pretty private people. But I felt called to change that. I thought at the time that it was to gather prayers – let’s show…
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Relief-triggered Grief
I’ve put off writing on this topic because it requires admitting something that makes me feel terrible. Which tells me that it is EXACTLY what I should be writing about. I didn’t experience a sudden loss. I experienced a medical loss of Landan. And I would imagine that anyone who is facing medical complexities with…
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It’s Real
This week is the first time I’m really feeling the loss of Landan. Logically, I know he’s been gone for 18 days. But between the fog of trying to prepare everything for his celebration, my insomnia and severe sleep deprivation, everything just felt surreal. I’m sure it was complicated by the fact that Andy and…
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The Triplets
There are many things about Landan’s story that are unique. One of the more fun ones is that all three of my siblings and I had baby boys around the same time. Landan had cousins born 24 and 18 days before him. We referred to them as “the triplets”. Two weeks prior to Landan passing,…
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The First First
Today marks 5 days without Landan. It also is our middle child’s 5th birthday. Because of Landan’s health, all the kids had been told birthday parties would be on hold this year. I am grateful for that small relief. We did our best to make his day everything he wanted it to be. We went…
Loving Landan 